When I consider giving thanks, so much of what I feel seems laced with a tinge of expectation. I have so much in my life that falls invisible to me in the day to day. I feel, even in my 75th year, that I have much to learn about true thankfulness.
Perhaps growing up in this American land of plenty, then more, has dulled my sense of what it means to be mindfully thankful. Yes, I feel happiness at times, but is that thankfulness? I seem always in search of an understanding of that authentic feeling.
There’ve been times, like this pandemic, that’ve drawn me closer to catching a glimpse of genuine gratitude. So perhaps what I am grateful for is the realization that I still have much to learn in this matter — and that I am fortunate to still have the chance to do so.
too much I take for granted
so much I should not
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rob kistner © 2021
Happy Thanksgiving
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