Original DDE™ surrealistic art: “You Are Always” by: rob kistner © 11/2/23
I can still feel it
all of it
the anger
the perversity
the pain
the powerlessness
the anguish
the anger
that someone so young
so beautiful
could be taken
by another’s careless act
the perversity
of a son
passing before the father
my heart broken
bargaining with god
that you be returned to life
in exchange for mine
you were so alive
so wonderfully alive
thinking of you now son
of my favorite picture of you
it’s the one I treasure most
a simple snapshot
taken at the airport
upon your return
from New York City
having run their marathon
a gentle triumphant smile
obvious your eyes were beaming
behind your ‘cool’ shades
jacket sleeves rolled
so casually hip
your carry-on gripped firmly
steady in your left hand
your medal dangling proudly
from your strong neck
the gentle victor
fiercely handsome
taken just before
the finish line
of your 18 years
it said it all
your race was run
your bag packed
your reward in hand
though we did not know
you were ready to fly
my precious angel
I still feel it all
and I still feel you
in a tearful
turbulent night
you may come
as a breeze
stirring through my open window
a plaintive zephyr
yet sweet
you may come
as a faint sound in the darkness
an easy laugh
rich voice
a song
you may come as a sunrise
or a sunset
you may come
as a comforting thought
kindness
strength
gentleness
you may come
as a cherished presence
warm smile
clear eyes
peaceful eyes
full of wonder
the beauty of youth
you may come
as a moment recalled
a moment of the heart
that precious last time
we stood embracing
expressing our love
no way of knowing
it would be our last
I will feel that embrace
that warmth
forever
and now mostly you come as joy
the joy of who you were
and will always be
in my heart
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rob kistner © 2023
updated rob kistner © 2024
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