yes I said
do not touch
just go away
leave me be
while inside
I cried out
do draw near
stay with me
you are color
you are pure
you are joy
you are free
I am not
I am blank
I am beast
can’t you see
you are warm
I am frigid
I am torn
please don’t flee
you are breath
you are life
am I death’s
finality?
at the edge
of your love
I am either
— dichotomy
without you
there is much
you don’t know
about me
rob kistner © 2021
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You captured his dilemma, I think. He’s certainly headed in a wrong direction!
He’s lost and confused Bev, as am I — as are many of us.
I love the contrast that is not only outward visual, but also inward in emotions. A perfect poetic capturing of what the image speaks Rob. So glad you joined us for the Muse this week!
Thank you Carrie!
This is beautiful, Rob. You have captured dichotomy to perfection……..I read your poem “Grief” and am so very sorry for your loss. I dont think anything hurts worse. I know losing Pup was the biggest grief of my life, still there, though tamer, ten years later. Their love is so pure; we find it no where else as unconditionally. How you will miss him.
Thank you Sherry. He will be do very missed because he was do very loving — znd deeply loved.
Love and desire, push-pull, fear, loneliness, this is an honest description of what streams through when it comes to the messiness of it all. “At the edge of your love” is such a limbo to be in.
Right between love and the “friend zone”. It is not a secure place Lisa.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wA0vIcESGkI
Made me think of this old song.
Great song, great group, great album. I have it — so I will give it a good listen Shay!
A whirlwind of contrast; this was an uncomfortable portrait of an open-ended question.
And sadly I believe far more relations are open ended questions than we might suspect.
A dilemma for certain … the last stanza of your poem left me feeling quite sad, she needs to know him.
Simply saying Helen, if you are not invested, how can you know me.
A wise woman who knows him well will give him just enough space. I know a couple who went through this, she knew he was panicking at falling in love. Once he admitted it, all was fine.
That is the “happy ending” in this scenario. Sadly not all are happy, sometimes then imbalanced, perceived or real, erodes the relationship. I believe that significantly more relationships are imbalanced than we may want to believe.
a poem full of push and pull – perfect title too
“I am torn
please don’t flee”
excellent lines!
A relationship seeking alignment Laura
Hmm limbo is never a nice state the pull and push of heaven and hell are the strand for knitting brow and limbs
Happy Sunday
Much love…
Thank you Gillena. When one partner in a relationship feels pulled, or uncertain, or lesser — it is a very bad sign.
Great way to capture the leap and the fear and the dichotomy.
The frequent asking in a dominant/recessive — am I good enough. Am I a danger to this relationship?
Your strange little poem strengthened your words.
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This person does not feel they carry their weight in the relationship. Makes them insecure, feeling like the lesser contributor. But in the end they feel sad that the dominant partner has not invested the time to allow the lesser partners strengths to flourish — which may be dangerously true. Remember, the lesser partner wondered if they might be death’s finality? Very unstable relationship.
Nice contrast, just as the image speaks. “leave me be” is a good philosophy to be in too.
Thank you Sumana…
Longing is such a confusing state… should I … could I … will/won’t
You’ve expressed so well the quandary love can bring.
And Susie, it seems no matter how long you are together, the inner conflict surfaces occasionally. I call those private moments of quiet personal recommitment.