Midnight July

 

Midnight July

•

relentless din
of crawling
prowling
night
pours steaming
through my window

midnight intrudes
damp
and searing

insistent

scalded air
too hot and thick
to breathe

a heat to suffocate

coarse whirr
drones overhead
promising relief

in vain

sweltered darkness
lays heavy
upon me

unbearable

I toss
in labored
half-sleep

gasping
for
cool relief

haltingly
I deep inhale
to fill my lunges

only to bake them
in cruel
sustaining breath

this oven to endure

salted droplets
trace my spine

baste my neck

pool
in the hollow
of my fevered chest

bloom and seep
from beneath the smother
of matted soak
atop my head

to weep their way
‘cross smoldered brow
into my eyes

and sting

no respite
in this nocturne furnace

night clings
and stifles

even dreams are scorched

simmering in July

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

Friendship’s Harbor

 

Friendship’s Harbor

(scene from a mystery)

•

“What do you mean Jack,” Grace inquired, the strain obvious in her weary voice. “Who exactly is going to take on Sebastian … and why?”

Her voice trailed off to an exasperated whisper. The why was not so much a question, as an exhalation of confused frustration. She seemed to know the answer was much too complicated to address at this hour, and she was too spent, physically and emotionally, to want to hear it.

Grace turned away from Jack, head lowered. Her arms fell limp at her sides, fingers splayed. She was trying her best to process what Jack was saying, to understand him – to understand the recent events that had brought her to this place in time … to make sense of anything. Her head was spinning, and she could feel the fatigue deep in her bones.

She dropped back onto the sofa, half sitting, half lying down – an exhausted slouch. She felt paralyzed, thoughts racing through her mind – fragmented, disconnected thoughts.

She looked at her hands, palms down in her lap, her eyes glazing over. Her vision drifted to her wrists, her left wrist in particular — to her watch. Slowly it came into focus, and she realized she was staring at the broken crystal face of her Audemars Piguet Promesse.

Ever since Sebastian had given her this watch for their anniversary, her life had turned upside down – but it had also turned a corner. Fate had pushed her round that corner, and she would never turn back again. Her life as Mrs. Carrebreu was over.

She knew this, knew it as surely as she knew she missed her children. Something must be done to get them out of that house – his house. It could no longer be her home, but they would always be her children – and she feared for them. They had to be part of whatever direction fate was leading her.

It was fate that had broken the crystal – fate, and her quick reflexes, blocking Sebastian with her forearm as he lashed out at her in anger, following their anniversary dinner.

He had apologized, explaining it away as the result of stress. “It will never happen again,” he’d said in his most gentle and sincere voice – but she was far too familiar with this empty promise. This was not the first time, and the incidents of abuse were escalating.

She’d only come into his office that evening to thank him again for the gorgeous timepiece. She thought this was where he’d retired after leaving the dining table. But she could see, in the subdued light, that he was not there. The mahogany paneled room was empty.

She loved the aroma of his Classic Port pipe tobacco that permeated the walls. Her father had also smoked that blend in his Barling Meerschaum, and the heady fragrance was comforting to her – so she lingered. That’s when she noticed it, on his desk, silhouetted by the light from the Tiffany lamp.

Her curiosity drew her to it. She’d just picked it up when Sebastian entered. “What the hell do you think you’re doing? Put that god damned box down,” he’d shouted — then flew into a rage.

Why had her discovery of the leather box sent Sebastian over the edge? What were those letters that spilled out when she dropped the box upon being viciously slapped?

They’d looked terribly official, with their seals and embossing – and written in a language that she did not recognize. Sebastian certainly scrambled frantically to collect them from the antique Persian rug, and return them to the box. But she managed to conceal one, sliding it under her hips as she lay where she’d fallen after being struck.

Sebastian’s bizarre reaction to the correspondence scattered on the floor, and the strangeness of the language they contained, had piqued Grace’s interest. Instinct drove her to hide the envelope until she was able to carefully fold and secret it into her pocket, as her husband hurried from the room, with the curious leather box in tow.

Grace felt it was important that she take this letter, so she spirited it out of the room, found her red leather shoulder bag, and buried the puzzling document deep inside for safekeeping. She’d planned to somehow learn more about its origin and content.

It was again fate that lead her the next morning to the jewelers, seeking a new watch crystal. It was while standing at the counter, waiting to be served, that she’d spied Sebastian coming out of the restaurant across the street, in the company of a woman — a stranger to Grace. They had climbed into a waiting limousine.

Grace had broken from the counter in a hurry, and bolted through the door to get a better look. Unfortunately, as she’d reached the sidewalk and acquired a reasonable view of the vehicle, it had sped away. She had noticed markings on the door, and a license plate, a type she had not immediately recognized – but she could read neither.

Fate had orchestrated this chance encounter, and unfolded this convoluted chain of events for her — but what was she to do with it. Where could she begin in an attempt to unravel this mystery? All this was flooding through her mind when she was startled back to the present by Jack, returning to the room with pillows and a blanket.

“I will take the sofa tonight,” he said, “You’re completely burned out. I’m putting you in my room,” he continued in a kind and caring tone. “My bed is amazingly comfortable, and you need sleep – lots of good, deep sleep.”

He reached down and took Grace’s hand, helping her to her feet. Gently wrapping his arm around her waist, he escorted her down the hall and into his room. Stopping just inside the door, he said, “You will be safe in here. We’ll talk about everything in the morning,” and he gave her a warm hug, stepped back into the hall, and closed the door.

Grace realized there were too many questions to answer, too many unknowns — just too damned much to even think about right now.

“Yes, in the morning,” she mumbled to the door.

Then, hugging her red shoulder bag with the mysterious envelope tucked safely inside, Grace shuffled across the room and collapsed on the bed.

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

The Light

 

 

The Light

•

even the smallest light
of wisdom
burning in the pitch black
of ignorance
casts its glow far-reaching

• • •
__________________________

•

the pitch black
of ignorance
succumbs
to the simplest
light of wisdom

• • •
__________________________

•

(haiku)

one can penetrate
the pitch black of ignorance
wisdom is the light

• • •
__________________________

•

(haiku)

lightless ignorance
cannot vanquish absolute
seek the light of truth

• • •
__________________________

•

(haiku)

lightless ignorance
does not rise impregnable
wisdom’s light will pierce

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

L.A.

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L.A.
 

this place
this uncentered tangle
this giant strip mall

petrochemically addicted

conspicuously consumed

LA
land of false fronts
false promise

back lots
back stabbing

pop culture
popped dreams

disneyfied
pornocopia

americana’s cracked patina

LA
self-centered city

flat and stinking
spreading like disease

boiling
seething
ravaged

sad and suffocating

choking
on exhaled excess

LA
hordes in a hurry

rushing
raging

fleeing ruined reality
going nowhere

soulless city
wholly californicated

evacuated masses
escape northward

unwanted

LA
Lost
Angel-less

la la land

murderville

LA
DOA
died of arrogance

RIP

rob kistner © 2001