Month: June 2012

Dwellers

I feel you
living
breathing
thinking
deep within the confines
of my shadowy psyche

your presence is palpable
visceral

I am not alone
my emotions
obsessions
my impulses are not yet mine
exclusively

I
am not
we
are dwellers

and we are at odds
conflicted
torn between the heroic
and the horrific

dark evil urges
spawned in the blackest voids of my soul
at war with inclinations toward the sacred

a precarious balance
between the compulsion to ravage
and the wisdom to relish

between a mania to consume
and a desire to sustain

between murder
and mercy
madness
and clarity

the duality rages unchecked
struggles
against the constraints of convention
and the confusion of mindless chaos

stirring the unquenchable ache
to break the shackles of acquiescence
to rise above morality

longing for raw freedom
to unleash the beautiful beast within
the essence of natural self
to be Nietzsche’s begotten
attentive to impulse
guided by core instinct

but

I think
therefore I am

at odds
for life

~ ~ ~

rob kistner © 2012

Elusivity

veiled in promise
they beckon me
seductively
the elusive dreams
upon my heart embossed

yet there is a storm
can rage within
to churn at times
my weary mind
focus turned and tossed

the way grows foggy
direction blurred
the path unclear
the purpose slurred
this journey can exhaust

to stay the course
I cast and chart
and reference often
in handmade note
but not every “t” gets crossed

so my life gets lived
in bits and pieces
scribbled on scraps
of random papers
so many soon so lost

in losing them
confusion rises
chaos threatens
hopes can scatter
my elusive dreams the cost

~ ~ ~

rob kistner © 2012