art by: Debi Adams
He awakens
unbidden by alarm
lingers in the darkness
warm neath the blankets
fumbling for the lamp
follows moments of procrastination
before he lifts himself upright
slides feet into slippers
to rise ever so stiffly
from the comfort of bed
pulling on his robe
he ambles to the kitchen
takes a cup from the shelf
pours chamomile tea
brewed ready each morning
by the wonders of technology
he retreats to his office
to his chair
where it waits
welcoming
in a pool of soft light
buffered against the chill
of pre-dawn dark
he sits
sips steeped motivation
quietly peeling away fog
that layers his mind
residue of another fitful night
he is somber
but pleased to be awake
to be alive
grateful for the peace
and the quiet of early morning
fleeting though it is
his thoughts
begin to un-blend
to gather
in a cohesive palette
stirring his notice
slowly they sort
in colors of mood
melancholy greys
fear’s dark ebony
purples of pain and anger
the violet of regret
sorrowful blues
gentle peaceful greens
golden joy
laughter’s bright amber
love’s ruby red
the scarlet of passion
but the colors have spilled
running raw ‘cross the floor
puddling in chaos
spectrum’s cacophony
this morning
reflections on his mortality
newly threatened
shoulder in coldly
crowding his reverie
bleeding this morning
into only shades of grey
pondering his plight
cursing fate
he struggles
neath the weight of uncertainty
he feels frozen
trapped by failing health
but he realizes
no bondage is worse
than the hope of happiness
but still
he hopes
he always hopes
a riot of emotions
overcome him
he seeks clarity
he reaches for his laptop
his tool of resolution
his canvass of language
in the spreading saffrons
and corals of dawn
he begins painting turbulent indigo
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rob kistner © 2022
Poetry at: dVerse
~ songs by two true goddesses & and a dude ~