This poem deals with my long time dream to create a book of my poetry, lyrics, and art; and to share some interesting life experiences. The dream has been hampered by my lifetime struggle with acute ADD and depression. In past few decades — diabetes, four heart attacks, congestive heart failure, declining hearing and sight. In past couple years with debilitating arthritis in both hands. But I stumble forward with the dream.
Veiled in promise
it beckons me
seductively
the elusive dream
upon my heart embossed
yet there is a storm
can rage within
to churn at times
my weary mind
focus turned and tossed
the way grows foggy
direction blurred
the path unclear
the purpose slurred
this journey can exhaust
to stay the course
I cast and chart
and reference often
in handmade note
but not every “t” gets crossed
I fire my dream
on electronic pages
share it with the world
progress at times freezes up
I pray it will defrost
so my life gets lived
in bits and pieces
scribbled on scraps
of random papers
so many soon so lost
in losing them
confusion rises
chaos threatens
hopes can scatter
my elusive dream the cost
failing health presses in
as does ravaging time
can I ever finally
get my dream to rhyme
before my clear thought wafts
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rob kistner © 2023
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