Estranged

When the last tree is cut down, the last fish caught, and the last stream poisoned, you will realize that you cannot eat money.Cree Indians


All scenes above from Oregon

 

W hen
in the spring of my life
I called to the wilderness

to the forests
to the rivers
to the lakes

and later
to the mountains
and to the high cliff’d
remote ocean shores

they always answered

they came to know me well
as my friends

they welcomed me eagerly
invigorating my spirit
soothing my mind
warming my soul

they shared their beauty
and their bounty
generously with me

the wilderness became
the blood of my life


Oregon Coast

now
in the winter of my days
they no longer
seem to know me

they do not seem
as welcoming

not as welcoming
to wander and roam

to hike
to camp
to fish

to just be
in their embrace
drinking of their energy
awed by their magic

this change of relationdhip
it saddens me greatly


Oregon Black Tail — doe

but it is I
who have spoiled the connection
the deep friendship

that is to say
my age
and failing health
have made me too awkward
too uncomfortable
too absent

to my wilderness
I’m no longer recognizable

my face
my eyes
my stature
my gait
all different

I have changed so

now a feeble stranger
bent and slow


3 Sisters Mts. — Central Oregon

I still love my forests
my mountains
my rivers and lakes

my high cliff’d
ocean shores

I do not blame
any of them

it is not their fault
we are estranged

it is definitely I
who changed

someday
I will return again
carried by my son

to be forever joined
with this wilderness I love

please love her too

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rob kistner © 2023

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