Threshold

 

L ost meditations have begun resurfacing in my waning december years. Reflections of mysteries I once pondered, of beauty beheld in the veiled truths I pursued.

In this moment, I am held suspended, in space in time. I sit thousands of feet above the sea of these mysteries, that drift before me, disturbed only by my faint breath, that beckons me inward to the bright center of joy, which wraps ‘round me.

Here, in a flutter of understanding, a flash of inner vision shudders me conscious, in shivering anticipation of discovery — an insight into awareness of a perspective which has not been glimpsed by me before.

It is of that which cannot be named, clouded in the secrets of the infinite, entwined in threads of forevermore, that bind fast my dreams — to carry them onward, effortlessly timeless. Radiant, I surrender, as these lost meditations unfold.

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rob kistner © 2023

More poetry at: dVerse

 



So Velvet


 

SUN…

W ould I were that velvet
that she reaches for so fondly
strokes with delicate pure fingers
with soft silken hands she lingers
draped in cascades cross her bosom
its warmth like sunlight on her shoulders
as she tingles with excitement
surrendering to its touch

MOON…

w ould I were that velvet
that enfolds her lithe languid essence
that fondles her like moonlight
as she ascends the stairs each night
the plush and luscious fiber
that rises on her breasts
with each soft and subtle sigh
each deep impassioned breath

EARTH…

oh would I were that velvet
that glides her naked form
on those vivid autumn evenings
enwraps her body warm as sunlight
then chills and thrills in shivers
as she opens it ‘neath moonlight
and swoons hushed smouldered gasps
carried off in earthly pleasures

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rob kistner © 2023

More poetry to make you gasp at: dVerse

 

Entwined

 

B eyond presence
beyond timeless
beyond the vexing
temporal fray
you are my yin
my darkling beauty
would that you be
no other way

should you bend
in threat to break
I will null
the fatal sway
I am your yang
strong and steady
every danger
I will belay

you are my yin
and I your yang
in balanced oneness
we will stay
and so it is
until forever
beyond even still
our dying day

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rob kistner © 2023

More poetry to make you gasp at: dVerse

 


Sing Out!

~ Two poems about the playful joy of singing ~


“Sing For Joy” – digital rendering by: rob kistner © 2010

 

A tear can cloud the brightest day
song will brush aside the clouds
is not sadness just a passing state
but what a melody can chase away

a tune played true with voice in tow
little sorrows flee from such display
thing is, so few will dare seek joy
and thus succumb to feeling low

yet when life is lived in harmony
what hurt you have will drift and fade
joy in chorus will lift the heart
it swells the soul in reverie

is it not foolish to keep bliss entombed
to see not but the dark and gloom
sing — and laughter will light the room

a song is but a little thing
and yet what joy it is to sing

*

 
When life has lost its harmony
a simple song is where to start
sing — and laughter will light your day
a joyful chorus will lift your heart

if strife makes you feel you’re lost
a sweet melody will find your way
a joyful chorus will lift your heart
sing — and laughter will light your day

if you find your mind is full of worry
a tune will make the dark clouds part
sing — and laughter will light your day
a joyful chorus will lift your heart.

a cheerful whistle if you feel low
sadness flees when you sing and play
a joyful chorus will lift your heart
sing — and laughter will light your day

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rob kistner © 2023

More playful poetry at: dVerse

 



Confident

 

Fearless
and confident

she knows the moves

sees the steps
clearly in her mind

now running
she feels her stride

calms her mind

relaxes her body
just before elevation

envisions her landing

she’s done this

so at speed
gasping
she leaps

always
she leaps

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rob kistner © 2023

More poetry to make you gasp at: dVerse

 

Nor Love

 

I cannot look
at broken stair
where foot slipped
and ankle bent
as apple basket fell

no voice came
just a final gasp

those tender lips
will not know again
sweet fruit
nor breath

nor love

moonlight caresses
a lifeless form

blackness presses in

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rob kistner © 2023

More poetry to make you gasp at: dVerse

 

Portals (a rock fable)


 

Hmmm…

excuse me please
do you perhaps see these
they are portals of perspective
doorways that reflect
back to my history

doorways lookin back
to my life on stage
to my wilder ways
to my rock and roll days

their truths now memories
they sometimes feel hard to know
clouded like mysteries
the veil of years has fallen low

I remember the feelings though
the hard work and the joy
the dreams and the uncertainty
the egos and petty jealousy
the intoxicating spotlight
the drug that was applause

and there is always the music

in the light and in the dark
in the heat and in the cold
in the calm – in the chaos
in the coming — in the leaving
in the joy — and in the sadness
…there is always — the music

these doors of memory
bring it all back for me

they open on the freedom
and the boundless energy

they link back to the me
and to my star struck band
we believed the glowing dream

when the door to that dream — stood ajar
and that glow seemed not too far

we knew it only ever shone on very few
so we did everything that we could do
we even stood briefly in that light
as our dream started comin’ true

can still see the ole’garage where we honed it
sweatin‘ til we were good enough
that we unfolded it on stage
man—we definitely owned it

and we were — damned good enough
we had our chops down right
playin’ it night after night
and we kept our shit totally tight

rollin’ from gig to gig
in a beat up chevy van
playin hard to show the A&R man
that we kick’d it every night

we laid it all out at our gigs
we was workin’ hard to make the bigs
developing the aura of rock stars
playin’ it out in bigger’n’bigger bars

we rocked it nightly
we rolled it mightly
our fans got to know
we had an ass kickin’ show
a loyal following that liked us

eventually we opened for the big names
and we weren’t playin’ fun’n’games

we really ripped and rocked it
played clean — tight in the pocket
we was soarin’ like a rocket
hurtling toward that dream

we’d become rock band authentic
our live shows — fierce and frantic
we got real fuckin’ good
n’played only our own tunes

we played the road like warriors
never let the audience down
always working to build our “sound”
dreamin’ of that rock-fame honeymoon

finally — we got our first big break
we put everything we had at stake
this was our shot at fame and glory
the shot we felt destined we would take

well that shot drug on
for several years
several unfulfilling years
of disappointment and tears

we hung in there quite a while
evolved through several iterations
we developed a helluva style
but there were too many damned frustrations

and like a sad’ol broke down story
we never quite grabbed the fame’n’glory
though we reached strong to try’n take it
in the end — we didn’t make it

all our dreams of glory
and of that glowing rock star fame
well — it all went up in flame

my life moved on
and it was a good life
blessed with children
and now a good wife

my life still had its share of adventure
but when those rock star dreams were shattered
when I thought that was all that mattered
when I was sure I could never forget
all the disillusionment and regret
those were bitter tears I cried

but now lookin’ back
I’m damned proud of us

though in the end
we didn’t make it
at least we tried

*
rob kistner © 2021

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

 


For Glenn

NOTE: this is written for Glenn Buttkus, an actor, writer, poet, humanitarian, and a friend of nearly two decades. He left this earth on February 17, 2023. I will genuinely miss Glenn. We shared a love of poetry and sensitivity to the world. The middle section (in parenthesis) of my poem here, are Glenn’s words and spirit verbatim. His wonderful poetry blog was “Feel Free To Read”.

 

 

Between wakefulness
and REM
there is a place
a dimension that I know
a dimension we both roamed

that dimension
the neuralspace of fantasy
of illusion
where imagination roams
a place where poetry lurks

it was each of us hunting
the fleetingly elusive poem
or powerful piece of writing
that eventually lead us
to where first our ideas met

here in this magical place
way far out in the ether
in the deep cyberspace
called the internet

for us two aging men
it was fresh and new
which made each day ahead
a most wonderful adventure

when
from site to site
from day to day
week to week and year to year
we’d write poetry
or we would just rant
about the world situation

kind congratulatory comments
offered to each other
on our boldness
on our brashness
on our badassness
or our dead-on accuracy
on the asshattery we encountered

and showing our respect
for other fine poets
and powerful writers
whose heads remained
in daylight
eyes wide open

everyday we found fodder
new things to write about
as time rolled ever on

our paths would uncross
from time to time
and we’d get separated
by circumstance or illness
or simply down time

but we’d eventually reconnect

new site with new energy
and we’d vigorously relaunch
our cyber-poet relationship

I remember so very well
our first encounter in 2005…

…This piece thumps & bumps
and shakes its ass, Rob,
written from the gut, and
rife with gems of recall from
the poet who was there. It
is like Raymond Chandler
meets Dashell Hammett for
a beer and a bump at the
Gladiator across the sticky
table from Larry Levi, where
even Scorsese could dream
of plots, and Paul Schrader
would bullshit with you until
dawn, where Ledbelly drops
in just before the sun and his
six string heralds the events
to come. I like your line
/steel-heart working girls/
for those ladies still stroll in
the subterranean streets midst
most of our souls…

that beast of writing
was all you my friend
when I read it
I knew…
we were kindred spirits

you took my breath away
with this amazing comment
left on my then poetry site
‘From The Red Chair’
in responce to my piece
“4:00 AM Omelettes”

the piece was about my years
as a catholic high schooler
starting at age 16-years-old
singing in the mafia-run
all night covert gambling dens
and nightclubs of Northern KY

I would later update and expend it
retitling it “sneakin’ up on breakfast”

all those wonderful years ago
you blew my damned mind
with that uber-brilliant
bit of outstanding writing

our ongoing encounters differed
in that sometimes I’d write a poem
then you’d compose a witty comment
or you would write a rantin’ ripper
and I’d be the mouth-gaped commenter

but our welcomed encounters
at first occasional
continued to increase
year after wonderful year

each filled with many fine days
when we were energized
by some brand new site
offering brand new challenges
represented by new writing prompts

or some bonehead world figure
or ridiculous world event
so many to choose from

sometimes humor
or memories of younger days

our lives were different
quite different externally
and yet we resonated
remarkably similar in our views
and deeper in our spirits

in looking at our common time
from our own unique perspective
we saw the world as a whole

all those thousands of days
stimulating days
wonderful days
those special days

and when
after many years
we finally met
zoom face to zoom face

and spoke together
with other fascinating poets
from around the globe
hearing them share their poetry
on dVerse OLN

those were truly great days

but not these recent days
not since you passed
the night before
my 76th birthday

an upsetting night for me
when I read of your death

never got to say adios
to you
or to your Buck

I am now bent
not only by the weight
of advancing age
and ever more consuming disease
but now by the yoke of sorrow

I am heavy
with the weight of loss

I am haunted
by the ghost of memory

how can such a void be filled
when one so mentally vital
with a huge spirit
is gone

so much wit and wisdom
frustration at the world
robbed from this world

lost when you passed

one who understood
the need for giving
in a careless crazy world
darkened by political greed
political stupidity

by a global pandemic
by war after war

a kind heart
truly unselfish
whose welcoming embrace
included all

Glenn — I will not forget
I will remember you
and all those days and years

that’s how I’ll fill this void

with the seeds of friendship
planted deep in cyber-soil
and inside my heart
now filled with grief

may they grow
to make the memories
richer and more precious

grow to make me gentler
and more grateful
for my loved ones
for my friends
and for the cyber poet buddies
still in my life

good-bye Glenn
farewell my friend
I will not forget

I will tend these seeds
you planted deep
and think of you

I will not forget

*
rob kistner © 2023

More poetry at: dVerse

 
We used to dig talking about our younger years, and crazy lives, you as an actor, and me as a traveling blues/rock singer — well my friend, this one’s for you…

Enraptured

NOTE: When I write a sensual piece, my intention is not to write pornographic, not from a sexually predatory perspective — but rather from a place of deep love and passion, shared by genuinely committed lovers.

 

Last night, I quietly watched you, asleep in the light of the half moon, as it traced the soft edge of dark and light, where it enfolded so gently upon you through the open window, fondling your form.

My eyes embraced full measure, your beautiful essence, to then be lost in the golden tangles of your hair, radiant in the pure moonglow. It fanned out in soft wisps, across your graceful neck, then lay smooth upon your silken breasts, that rose and fell with your breathing. Here I lingered upon the precious tender bud.

As your breath fell, my eyes glided further, down through the valley of your rose petal navel, to be entranced by the velvet flower, sensuously shadowed in the satin cleft, where supple limb met supple limb. Such sensual serenity. I swooned, and swelled to bursting, with love.

I am enraptured
by this vision before me
intoxicating

*
rob kistner © 2023

More moonlit poetry at: dVerse

 

Manhattan Melancholy

“There’s some longing for home, no matter where we are.” – Robert Frost

 

So far across that big ocean
yet your forever on my mind
sometimes homesick or lonely
hard feeling those combined

I left home so very young
my loving family left behind
found friends here in Lisbon
and memories that will bind

life here’s turned out great
expectations filled, no deny’n
next step in my dream future
has much clearer been refined

here I’ve a richness in my soul
and too a quiet peace of mind
back there folks hurry n’shout
but at heart — most are kind

Manhattan’s May sidewalk bouquet
remembering — I can’t help cryin’
point is, NYC’s stuck in my head
for my big apple, my love is blind

it’s just my Manhattan melancholy
a tough sadness when unconfined
do I ever think about going back
no – it’s to going on I’m inclined

no — never will I go back there
to this reality I am resigned
yet I will always feel the tug
it’s my New York state of mind

*
rob kistner © 2021

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

More poetry at: earthweakl

 





The Red Queen

“In life, as in chess, forethought wins.” – Charles Buxton

 

Does he think me a fool
that I would fall for his ploy
be drawn into his trap
his feeble transparent gambit

I will not

strategy must play out slowly
protection is imperative
but foolhardy aggression

tantamount to failure

the squarely stark contrasts
of extreme dark and light
laid out before me
engage my player’s drive

stir my essence
fire my soul
with the need
to be right

absolutely

I feel sweat droplets
on the verge
but I must stay cool

to show vulnerability
to hint at fear
is deadly

yes — stay cool

this situation
is at once familiar
yet it feels
exotically foreign

anxiety gnaws
at my resolve

the sensation
is a hollow
empty place
deep within

echoing
with uncertainty

but I embrace
the moment

I believe I see
his plan
his diabolical vision

but still
I combust
with questions

yet I know
they bring
the right answers

I see clearly
his obvious next move

and I see mine

I feel joyfully free
elevated by my insight

I’m held transfixed
by this beautiful mystery
that is chess

yes – yes
I see it all
I see it clearly

yet
I must be careful

everything
rides on this

why am I so intense
you wonder

this is not a matter
of life and death
you say

oh no
my friend
oh no

it is far more serious
than simply that


David Maverick © 2007

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rob kistner © 2021

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

More poetry at: earthweakl

 

Lighting the Stars

 
Often I dreamed as a boy
searching the sky for aliens
could my wishes come to be
when I’ve grown to be a man

will I someday have money
to buy the things I so want
possibly find love and joy
following a good life plan

success began as a young man
but the grind became my life
too often consumed by stress
caught up in the crazy pace

years spun wild as a top
around faster ever faster
life layered its sad patina
etched deeply in my face

suddenly no longer young
looking back across the years
the triumphs and the tragedy
memory flickering like a flame

I’ve borrowed bought and sold
tried to play life by the rules
but have I leveraged my soul
just to play this fleeting game

now an old man on a bench
gazing at this fragile flower
memories misty as this drizzle
so many mysteries unexplained

body bent by the weight of worry
my mind tumbling in reflection
wondering if everything I lost
was worth what it was I gained

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rob kistner © 2023

More poetry at: The Suday Muse
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The Kiss


 
This is how the WriteSonic AI thinks kissing feels:
What your kiss feels like
It’s heavenly and divine
No words can truly explain
The joy it brings to my mind
My lips long for your kiss
And I wait for it to come
Your sweet caress is bliss
It’s something I can’t outrun
Your tender lips on mine
Everything else disappears
It’s like we’re standing in line
Soon we will have no fears

This is how I think kissing feels…

Eyes lock
they subtle a smile
I lean slightly toward you
I slip my arms ‘round you
one hand slides smoothly
up the center of your back
I pull you to me slowly
looking for a sign that you agree

it comes

we begin a deeper more sensusl embrace
feeling our bodies softly pressing
the softness of our bed
the smoothness of our sheets
eye contact never breaks

my head leans in hesitantly
then yours
both our heads tilt slightly
gently to the right
we glide fully into each other
gently lips contact

they play
nipping
tugging
tasting

with growing urgency
heads tilt forword
lips interlock fully
flesh to flesh
we are breathing each other now

eyes close
the sensual kaleidoscope
begins whirling in my head
as I lay you back on our pillows
as our mouths open slightly
lips pout full and softened
but in charge
our mouths now cover each
gentle but firm
feeling the flesh on flesh
lips on lips
and tongues slip willingly
with a stealth urgency
but with gentle passion
our tongues entwine
gently dancing
feeling
surrendering

our bodies have melded to one
as we huskily begin
to consume the passion of the other
time and space fall away
joyful thrill fills my being
I lose time and place completely
the touching of our souls
in a depth of timeless pleasure
we become infinite
one
as time disappears

then

our lips begin to slowly unlock
as our heads glide back slightly
I slowly determine where I am

I begin to see again
searching I find
I’m looking into your eyes
my whole body tingling
I see your face
your sensual smile
a tingle runs up my spine
I feel a warm flush
has taken my face

I am lost in our embrace
but the pleasure of the contact
of the entire experience
makes me swoon

I am wholly excited

softly
under my breath
I say… “wow — oh wow — I love you so much”

you smile into my eyes
I feel your body
breathing deeply
as it softens in my arms

what happens from here
strictly our business…

*
rob kistner © 2023

More poetry at: dVerse

 






https://youtu.be/EmVJDfbF-j8

Sweet Honey Kiss

loves-serenade

 

To you I sing my sweet sweet lover
songs sung soft as silk and satin
sensual as a lingered bare embrace

I promise this sweet world is ours
this perfect moment’s never ending
I’ll lift you high on rapture’s cloud

I’ll kiss you kisses like honeyed cream
that quench your quivering naked lips
as they slowly smolder like kindled ember

tonight we freely dare sweet lust’s embrace
as we roar to blaze in love’s wildest abandon
how I burn to offer you love’s special kiss

come to me love — I’ll take you timeless
enfold you into my soul’s deep desires
my lover’s breath — now make it yours

I enfold soft upon you this special hour
to taste the nectar of your tender flower
to set your every fantasy free
carrying you away to ecstasy

*
rob kistner © 2023

More sweet pucker poetry at: dVerse

 


After The Gig

~ it ain’t all glamorous ~

 

Keys and reeds
was really wail’n
finga’s sailin’

stratocaster master
was solid groove

my vocal chops
smokin’ smooth

mr monsta’ bassman
rollin’ thunder claps

stickboy d’wizard
rippin’ up d’traps

kicked ass ev’ry night
burned d’town ta d’ground
then our Roadies
tore the music down

*
rob kistner © 2023

More music poetry at: dVerse