Through Time & Space

…the following is an short story I see as the premise from a science fiction novel/novella I hopeto write before I’m dead and gone.

”I have watched
golden fire clouds,
hanging in pale green skies,
over the azure seas of Toluras”

I have seen the copper leaves
of the parmus fronds
flashing from indigo mountains
in the crystal mists of Gemin.”

I have beheld exquisite beauty
in my rich, full life
but none so beautiful
as your eyes tonight”

Artheo whispers these bewitching words, his breath warm on the tender lobe of my ear. Searching the depth of my eyes, plumbing my very soul, he presses his lips softly to mine, and with gentle passion — bids me farewell with a kiss.

The exchange of poetry, at times of high emotion, is a longstanding tradition on our planet, and my lover’s words were especially moving as we parted tonight.

This intimate moment now three hours past; I linger in the bittersweetness, still tasting his lips, smelling his hair, feeling the heat of his body — I ache for him.

But here I stand on the aft deck of the Thadius, hurtling through space, gazing into star-clustered blackness, cherishing the pleasures of our parting embrace.

A sudden chill shocks me sober. I’ve been here, done this, precisely this in every detail. But I know that is not possible. It is my first time aboard this particular ship.

I am gripped by foreboding. I shiver as I watch the sapphire-jade orb that holds my fascination, grow smaller, being slowly swallowed by the eternal night of space. It continues to recede, its form becoming softer, less clearly defined in the carbon-composite observation bubble, as zero-g frost clouds and obscures this breathtaking view of this lush planet, our home planet, Gemin.

Some now on board will not again see this precious sight for fifteen years, if they are counted among the fortunate who do return.

We race, exceeding light-squared, toward a distant call for help, an unknown destiny, in the far reaches of uncharted space — with no idea what we will encounter. The call made it certain that no good lay ahead for those aboard who now rush to respond to the enigmatic distress signal.

I am Sephias, on an ecological research mission, to return home in a year’s time. My team and I disembark at Topiarus, the first stop on this voyage.

Although I am off-ship before we reach the origin of the urgent summons — I am nonetheless distraught. It is the anxiety of separation. It is also the result of the intense stress that permeates the crew who are going the distance, to the edge of space, to answer the cry for help. The pressure is palpable, contagious — I feel it to my core. It terrifies me.

It is common for me to feel disconcerted, ungrounded each time I choose to leave my home to go on mission, each time I leave my soul mate, Artheo. Our love is solid and deep; it has withstood many of these separations.

We understood when I joined FarWorlds that separation came with the program, part of the deal. However, knowing this makes it no less difficult. And this time out, my sadness and anxiety is heightened further, given this mission’s chilling uncertainty, the sense of threat, of impending danger, significant danger.

At FarWorlds Corp we are involved in new-resources exploration. We are scientists. We are not trained spacetroopers. Our expertise is not military. This ship, the Thadius, is a solar-wind powered space schooner, a research vessel. It is fast and agile, not suited for space combat. The security force we have on board is generally suited to our needs. They’re trained to defend, not to attack. They do well protecting us from the typical threats we encounter on our journeys through known space.

This mission is different. The unknown makes this extremely dangerous. The Dextorium was an advance ship sent to reconnoiter 9 months ago. The Dextorium did in fact carry a battle-trained spacetrooper force. It has now fallen silent, no contact for over a month — not a word.

To take my mind off these things disturbing, I drift to Artheo — to our last kiss. He presented a calm, brave face at our goodbye, but I knew better. Together now two wonderful centuries; rest assured, I know my man. The concern was set deep in his eyes.

As decorated Primests of the Science-Sect Elite, we are privileged with three birthing cycles to improve the gene pool of our species. A 40-year no-birthing period, our second, now nears its end. Soon we will enter our third free-birthing cycle.

During the procreation cycle, we are relieved of our career responsibilities, so that we may raise, and mentor our offspring. Artheo and I both welcome the sabbatical of twenty years this period affords. We’ve begotten families in the two prior cycles and love them both, cherishing the bonds of love that develop.

We now dream of this newest family our near future holds in store. This coming family is so very important in our lives, Artheo’s and mine. State edicts dictate that the children of 3rd cycle Primest’s families caretake their honored lifegivers as their vitality declines, prior to rejuvenation.

As my betrothed and I move closer to our time of stand down and our revitalizing cryogenic hibernation; this, our new family, will be our comfort and support as our current life-phase draws to its close.

As I reflect, I am disrupted. A sudden chaos erupts, a panicked commotion on the foredeck. There is great alarm. I rush forward in time to see a startling scene begin to unfold. There in front of our speeding ship a menacing field of strange devices appears, seemingly from nowhere.

They begin to methodically spread, with apparent logic, to form a grid blocking our path — acting intelligent, with a single mind, as though the whole is a sentient living thing.

They are immense, and they are many, as they assemble in a net-like maneuver, fanning out as far left and right as one can see. They are there, top to bottom, reaching ominously to apparent infinity — spread far too vast to travel around.

At their advancing speed we cannot outrun this threat. As we approach the steely web they accelerate exponentially. There is no doubt we are on a collision course.

Suddenly my senses are jolted sober. Hyper-alert, I stagger back in shock and awe, in abject terror, and cruel realization! It is now quite clear what fate befell our advance party on the Dextorium — and it appears many others. They’ve been, well, they’ve been absorbed by this horrific electronic death-mesh.

We are defenseless. We on the Thadius can only stare, terrified — but spellbound. The crew’s emotions now run the gamut. Shock is registered on every face. Tears fill most eyes as hell approaches.

It’s then I see it, in the grey-green carbon and cold blue steel closing upon us; the captured life-energies of the Dextorium crew, and countless others that have passed through this quadrant of space before.

It’s inconceivable! Their vital essence has been consumed by this entangled nightmare that now besets us. Their entities flicker in and out of focus, trapped in the grid, held fast, and hopeless.

The chilling, vacant look of utter surrender on their bewildered faces. They are living ghosts!

This thing is coming closer and closer — this host of evil. Terrified to my bones, I feel helpless, confused, and so completely alone.

In a moment of clarity, I rush to my solarcomm, “I must send a message to Artheo” I sob to no one in particular. holding a Droon orb of light bravely I begin first sharing poetry as is our custom.

“we have walked quietly hand in hand
in the emerald meadows of Telma
sharing its golden angelfruit
sweet as our stolen kisses

we’ve heard the haunting call
of the coral winged Lellurt
in Droon’s platinum skies
over teal Darpin Bay

now fate deems we part
see this Orb of Light
it is my true heart
when I am gone
it will shine on
sweet Artheo
it is my love
eternally”

“right now,
I want to hear
your soothing voice
my precious love.
I would give the world
to hear your voice.”

I am speaking in a controlled tone, yet laced with longing and trepidation. “I love you my dearest, but something bad is happening now, here where I am, There’s a chance”, beginning to break down, I must pause collect myself, to start again.

“There is a chance I may not return to you again, to our sweet life”, here my voice quavers, and then it cracks as I struggle to add, “or, to our children.”

Digging deep, grasping for courage I go on, “If this is to be my end, it falls to you to raise them now. Please let them see they’re loved forever. Protect them well, and keep them safe my love.”

It’s now becoming a struggle to even form words, but filled with love, I press on, “Remember my eggs. They are safely stored at the FarWorlds Corp’s Reproductive Center. The surrogate we selected has been tested and she is bonded pure. You must see to it our new family is born, that Zenus and Rennar are born. Please promise me!”

Choking back a deluge of emotions, I fight to conclude my message. This is the last I will ever send to my beloved Artheo — the last words he will ever hear me speak. “Our children, Zenus and Rennar, will be the final connection between you and I. Remember forever, they are a part of each of us my darling one.”

Swallowing a welling sob I continue. “He and she will care for you and see you through your dimming years. They will love you as you will love them. Give them my enduring love. Tell them about me.”

Voice faltering badly, I rise to finish. Leaning into my solarcomm, I share with Artheo my final words. “God, oh god, how I want you here in my arms. You are my heart, my life, my one true love! Goodbye my precious man. Remember, remember our love. Do not forget me.”

With that, my heart breaks. I stare stricken and silent into the screen, teardrops streaming down my cheeks.

12 hours later the message arrives on Artheo’s commstation screen. Gripped by disbelief at what he sees, at what he hears, consumed by horror, unable to move — he stands trembling, his face frozen in grief. He sees my message end, as my image flickers, and fades to black.

Artheo falls to his knees without sound, silent for some time. Then, with fear and sorrow scarred into his ashen face; he throws back his head, thrusts up his arms straight and stiff, fists clenched in anger, clenched so tightly fingernails cut into palms and bring forth blood.

Bloodied hands with ghost-white knuckles stab at the stars. He keens and moans, then begins to wail full voice; the guttural heart-wrenching wail of a man wholly bereft, soul-gored, devastated!

rob kistner © 2008

Midnight July

 

Midnight July

•

relentless din
of crawling
prowling
night
pours steaming
through my window

midnight intrudes
damp
and searing

insistent

scalded air
too hot and thick
to breathe

a heat to suffocate

coarse whirr
drones overhead
promising relief

in vain

sweltered darkness
lays heavy
upon me

unbearable

I toss
in labored
half-sleep

gasping
for
cool relief

haltingly
I deep inhale
to fill my lunges

only to bake them
in cruel
sustaining breath

this oven to endure

salted droplets
trace my spine

baste my neck

pool
in the hollow
of my fevered chest

bloom and seep
from beneath the smother
of matted soak
atop my head

to weep their way
‘cross smoldered brow
into my eyes

and sting

no respite
in this nocturne furnace

night clings
and stifles

even dreams are scorched

simmering in July

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

Friendship’s Harbor

 

Friendship’s Harbor

(scene from a mystery)

•

“What do you mean Jack,” Grace inquired, the strain obvious in her weary voice. “Who exactly is going to take on Sebastian … and why?”

Her voice trailed off to an exasperated whisper. The why was not so much a question, as an exhalation of confused frustration. She seemed to know the answer was much too complicated to address at this hour, and she was too spent, physically and emotionally, to want to hear it.

Grace turned away from Jack, head lowered. Her arms fell limp at her sides, fingers splayed. She was trying her best to process what Jack was saying, to understand him – to understand the recent events that had brought her to this place in time … to make sense of anything. Her head was spinning, and she could feel the fatigue deep in her bones.

She dropped back onto the sofa, half sitting, half lying down – an exhausted slouch. She felt paralyzed, thoughts racing through her mind – fragmented, disconnected thoughts.

She looked at her hands, palms down in her lap, her eyes glazing over. Her vision drifted to her wrists, her left wrist in particular — to her watch. Slowly it came into focus, and she realized she was staring at the broken crystal face of her Audemars Piguet Promesse.

Ever since Sebastian had given her this watch for their anniversary, her life had turned upside down – but it had also turned a corner. Fate had pushed her round that corner, and she would never turn back again. Her life as Mrs. Carrebreu was over.

She knew this, knew it as surely as she knew she missed her children. Something must be done to get them out of that house – his house. It could no longer be her home, but they would always be her children – and she feared for them. They had to be part of whatever direction fate was leading her.

It was fate that had broken the crystal – fate, and her quick reflexes, blocking Sebastian with her forearm as he lashed out at her in anger, following their anniversary dinner.

He had apologized, explaining it away as the result of stress. “It will never happen again,” he’d said in his most gentle and sincere voice – but she was far too familiar with this empty promise. This was not the first time, and the incidents of abuse were escalating.

She’d only come into his office that evening to thank him again for the gorgeous timepiece. She thought this was where he’d retired after leaving the dining table. But she could see, in the subdued light, that he was not there. The mahogany paneled room was empty.

She loved the aroma of his Classic Port pipe tobacco that permeated the walls. Her father had also smoked that blend in his Barling Meerschaum, and the heady fragrance was comforting to her – so she lingered. That’s when she noticed it, on his desk, silhouetted by the light from the Tiffany lamp.

Her curiosity drew her to it. She’d just picked it up when Sebastian entered. “What the hell do you think you’re doing? Put that god damned box down,” he’d shouted — then flew into a rage.

Why had her discovery of the leather box sent Sebastian over the edge? What were those letters that spilled out when she dropped the box upon being viciously slapped?

They’d looked terribly official, with their seals and embossing – and written in a language that she did not recognize. Sebastian certainly scrambled frantically to collect them from the antique Persian rug, and return them to the box. But she managed to conceal one, sliding it under her hips as she lay where she’d fallen after being struck.

Sebastian’s bizarre reaction to the correspondence scattered on the floor, and the strangeness of the language they contained, had piqued Grace’s interest. Instinct drove her to hide the envelope until she was able to carefully fold and secret it into her pocket, as her husband hurried from the room, with the curious leather box in tow.

Grace felt it was important that she take this letter, so she spirited it out of the room, found her red leather shoulder bag, and buried the puzzling document deep inside for safekeeping. She’d planned to somehow learn more about its origin and content.

It was again fate that lead her the next morning to the jewelers, seeking a new watch crystal. It was while standing at the counter, waiting to be served, that she’d spied Sebastian coming out of the restaurant across the street, in the company of a woman — a stranger to Grace. They had climbed into a waiting limousine.

Grace had broken from the counter in a hurry, and bolted through the door to get a better look. Unfortunately, as she’d reached the sidewalk and acquired a reasonable view of the vehicle, it had sped away. She had noticed markings on the door, and a license plate, a type she had not immediately recognized – but she could read neither.

Fate had orchestrated this chance encounter, and unfolded this convoluted chain of events for her — but what was she to do with it. Where could she begin in an attempt to unravel this mystery? All this was flooding through her mind when she was startled back to the present by Jack, returning to the room with pillows and a blanket.

“I will take the sofa tonight,” he said, “You’re completely burned out. I’m putting you in my room,” he continued in a kind and caring tone. “My bed is amazingly comfortable, and you need sleep – lots of good, deep sleep.”

He reached down and took Grace’s hand, helping her to her feet. Gently wrapping his arm around her waist, he escorted her down the hall and into his room. Stopping just inside the door, he said, “You will be safe in here. We’ll talk about everything in the morning,” and he gave her a warm hug, stepped back into the hall, and closed the door.

Grace realized there were too many questions to answer, too many unknowns — just too damned much to even think about right now.

“Yes, in the morning,” she mumbled to the door.

Then, hugging her red shoulder bag with the mysterious envelope tucked safely inside, Grace shuffled across the room and collapsed on the bed.

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

The Light

 

 

The Light

•

even the smallest light
of wisdom
burning in the pitch black
of ignorance
casts its glow far-reaching

• • •
__________________________

•

the pitch black
of ignorance
succumbs
to the simplest
light of wisdom

• • •
__________________________

•

(haiku)

one can penetrate
the pitch black of ignorance
wisdom is the light

• • •
__________________________

•

(haiku)

lightless ignorance
cannot vanquish absolute
seek the light of truth

• • •
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•

(haiku)

lightless ignorance
does not rise impregnable
wisdom’s light will pierce

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

L.A.

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L.A.
 

this place
this uncentered tangle
this giant strip mall

petrochemically addicted

conspicuously consumed

LA
land of false fronts
false promise

back lots
back stabbing

pop culture
popped dreams

disneyfied
pornocopia

americana’s cracked patina

LA
self-centered city

flat and stinking
spreading like disease

boiling
seething
ravaged

sad and suffocating

choking
on exhaled excess

LA
hordes in a hurry

rushing
raging

fleeing ruined reality
going nowhere

soulless city
wholly californicated

evacuated masses
escape northward

unwanted

LA
Lost
Angel-less

la la land

murderville

LA
DOA
died of arrogance

RIP

rob kistner © 2001

Melody

…here are two forms of reflection on the concept of melody…

 

Off Key

(tanka)

•

version 1

nature is a song
a melody transcendent
sung in harmony

but this chorus is threatened
humankind grows discordant

•

version 2

my love is a song
a melody transcendent
sung in harmony

but she will not sing along
likely she would sing off key

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

__________________

 

Love’s Lilt

(free verse)

•

sometimes

in the clatter
of a thoughtless moment

I forget to listen

fail to hear
the tender lilt
of our heartsong

but

when I am quiet
and we are close

our melody of love
is all I hear

please forgive
my selfish noise

rejoin me
in our sweet duet

I miss
your gentle voice

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

Shattered

 

 

Shattered

•

I come upon a man
standing by the road
looking sad

heavy box
in his arms
held close

he stares
expressionless
into my eyes

his gaze stops me
fixes me in place

his face is tired
and drawn
etched in worry

when at last I move
I draw near

close enough to see
this sullen man
is me

he extends his arms
that clutch the heavy box

he beckons me retrieve
this container he protects

filled with apprehension
I reach
and grasp the case

lift it cautiously

lay it at my feet

it slowly opens
to reveal
its strange contents

seven shattered dreams

struck mute
I gaze in wonder

confused
yet captivated
I inquire
of the nature
of the ruin
I behold

these are yours
the stranger says

broken by your hand

once
they each were shared
with one
who trusted you

each bond
you did betray
without a passing thought

abandoned carelessly

now the burden of this box
is mine beyond the grave

the stranger’s eyes
intensely sad
begin to pool
as he continues

it was on a road like this
that it was passed to me

I have carried it too long

I am weary from the load

now you must bend and lift
and clutch it to your breast
to struggle with its weight

until you pass it on

a tear
now softly glistens
on the stranger’s cheek

someday
a man will come
over that horizon

he will stop
and stare
transfixed by your presence

you will charge him with this chest

then he will lift
and carry
as I do

in a cycle of forever

for he too
will be you

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

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composite above entitled: “Box Of Dreams” – by: rob kistner © 2008
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• • •

 

Dark Self

 

 

Dark Self

•

hidden from the light of day
another me resides
though keeping to the shadows
a saving grace abides

a darkling essence
scarred and damaged
begotten in another life
another place and time

it is an anger manifest
righteous and so long suppressed
that could not find effective voice
to save my ruined innocence

silent when I had no name
for what I did not comprehend
the woeful time when youthful trust
was betrayed in ways insidious

sadly was this torment done
by the hand of the entrusted one
concealed from blind society
to perpetrate such vile deeds

in this fire of perversity
my molten other self was forged
hammered on my hardened soul
tempered by survival’s hand

to rise and fight the abject fear
cradled within my broken heart
to lift from me my veil of sorrow
and so restore my peace of mind

to stir and wake my sacred rage
and instill my will to live
thus reclaim my rightful pride
to finally stand and say – no more

my shadow self did save my life
in doing so turned me to stone
I did not like what I’d become
I’d sacrificed integrity

I turned away from my dark self
refused its further influence
set about the trying task
of recapturing my dignity

not so easily subdued
this shadow calls when I am weak
so now I live with watchful eye

vigilant – yet thankful

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

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collage above entitled: “Dark Self” – by: rob kistner © 2008
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• • •

Morning Gold

 

 

Morning Gold

•

across the meadow

last night’s dew clings
fondly to the old-growth

wrapped in crystalline embrace
it adorns the stately cedars
as if diamonds
that sparkle in the morning sun

a splendor befitting their beauty

this Sprring day begins bright and crisp

bird songs lilt
carried on a breeze

I see you afar
approaching on the path
backlit by sunrise
your hair golden in dawn’s glow

lover beholding beloved
I sit
warmed in daybreak’s window
with tea and fascination

I watch you
as you stop to rest

in this moment
my love spills over
floods ‘round me
until I am consumed

your lips sculpt a smile

I’m swept away on passion’s tide

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

click below to hear Morning Gold

 

Bad Weather

 

 

Bad Weather

•

you blew in like a typhoon
a hurricane of love
your kisses hot as lightning
striking from above

your passion was a tempest
I was swept up in its force
but now the winds have died
this storm has run its course

my thoughts are grey and cloudy
my eyes are steady rain
my heart’s caught in a cold front
bad weather’s bringing pain

yes, the warm winds will return
as will the clear blue skies
but my frozen heart will ever yearn
for the sun-fire of your eyes

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

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collage above entitled: “Bad Weather” – by: rob kistner © 2008
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• • •

 

Remembered

 

 

Remembered

•

leaning comfortably
into the curves

wind whipping
through our long hair

we wind our way
into the mountains

into the evening

alive
with 2-wheeled freedom

on the open road

not counting days
not keeping track
just being – free

we glide

feet up
knees tucked

captivated
by the thrill
of the throttle

we rocket

dive from light to shadow
to resurface once more
in the light

again and again

as the sun reveals itself
from time to time

warming us
from between peaks

as it begins to settle
behind the western slope
of the Rockies

four friends

four adventurers

fresh on the heels
of the summer of love

dedicated
to a critical mission

spread the peace
share the love
save our sanity

and above all else
keep the party rolling

we’ve thrown off
the structured mantle of life

to venture
into the random

the unknown

to embrace
the magnificent perfection
of living in
and for
the moment

•

it’s nearly four decades
since those days of freedom

memories have cooled
grown hazy

I take license in their recall
grateful they remain at all

I’m blessed by their refrain
no matter how faint

my days are not so light now

I’m rooted in responsibility

balancing the blessings
and the burdens
of life

sometimes bent
by the yoke of worry

made heavy
by the weight of loss

yet
occasionally

I still feel
the gentle breeze of freedom
stir

as I stand
feet firmly planted

braced against
the changing winds of time
and fate

tonight

adrift in the eternal now
awash in recollection

I smile within
warmed by remembered times
with beloved friends

those days of wonder

falling deeper in reverie’s embrace
I can almost feel that wind
on my face

tossing once more
my youthful mane

almost hear the laughter

see the glow
on the faces of three friends

now far away

I whisper a promise
to my awakened spirit

someday

before it is too late

I will again
pick my feet up

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

 

The Legend

…this is a bit of retro-melodrama written just for fun…

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he never quit on his dream, or his humanity

 

The Legend

•

permit me to share the legend
of the man who rocked the world
luminescent — larger than life
his bold banner of fame unfurled

with confidence he took each stage
flashed his skills with pride and power
his celebrity rocketed skyward
enormous talent, in his finest hour

a humble tempering childhood
helped him hone his mythic dream
a bright young man with wicked ‘chops’
he could make his guitars scream

his glory spread round the globe
renown and fortune grew unbound
like a rampant roaring wildfire
nothing it seemed would take him down

but terror struck while touring England
unleashing panic, fear & strife
bombs tore through the concert hall
to save his fans — he risk his life

the first blast ripped the back wall
mike in hand, he stood firm and fast
directing the people to safety
they all escaped — now he was last

it was horror in high definition
TV broadcast the heartbreaking sight
a question hung heavy over the chaos
did their hero meet death tonight

the sad truth was the top news story
the brave mega-star had died
all the world was seen to mourn
at candle vigils the people cried

so permit me to share this legend
of this remarkably brave young man
who, possessed of wealth and fame
truly never forgot the fan

• • •

rob kistner © 2008

…photo-collage entitled ‘Hero”, by: rob kistner