Cloistered

  • This piece deals with the strange duality we all carry with us through life, the unique contradiction between the person we think we are, and the ‘many’ other persons others perceive us to be from their experience of us, as filtered through their differing individual perceptions. Fair or not, convenient or not, we are ‘judged’. Our lives are impacted to one degree or another, every day by how we measure up to each of these interpretations of the “I” we are thought to be. This includes the “I” we perceive ourselves to be. Which one is real, is valid, or is any one of them truly definitive? The phrase “I am” presents a fascinating philosophical quandary.


    image by René Magritte

     

    Cloistered

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    when another
    tells you of yourself
    you’re shown the dance they see
    your outward choreography

    but you hear not of the music
    that rings true in your mind
    that leads and drives the steps
    to this inward dance they’re blind

    you are shown the reflection
    not the light that shines inside
    that illuminates your soul
    to guide your steps and stride

    are we the I that we know
    the self that we so treasure
    or are we in fact the other
    the one the others measure

    for if the valid I
    be the one that is most known
    then we are in fact that I
    the one to ourselves not shown

    for surely when compared
    the majority story shared
    is of the outward other
    the one seen by another

    and so we live our life
    cloistered in this other
    and live this life alone
    even when by many known
    for the I that’s outward shown
    is the I that’s not our own

    ~ ~ ~

    rob kistner © 2012

  • Late

    Late

    •

    I’m awake late Christmas Eve
    wrestling with what I believe
    regarding the truth of Santa Clause
    my parent’s proof is full of flaws

    • • •

    Ignorance falls like dark late night
    a pitch so black there is no light
    knowledge burning bright as flame
    drives darkness back to where it came

    • • •

    I was born by dark of moon
    a stormy night in late late June
    it’s rained on every birthday after
    my parties are devoid of laughter

    • • •

    O h this is bad, it’s our first date
    and here I am two hours late
    I have no quality excuse
    maybe battery cables rattled loose
    windshield shattered by a flying goose
    the road was blocked by a stubborn moose
    no… I’m turning back, ‘cause what’s the use

    • • •

    rob kistner © 2008