Moonsoul

This is metaphorical. Perhaps if we felt more deeply the impact left behind, as we move in and out of relationships, of any kind — maybe we would conduct ourselves differently.

 

This day
I come upon a stranger
standing by the road
looking sad

heavy box held in her arms
clutched close to her breast

she stares into my eyes
expressionless

her gaze stops me still
fixes me in place

her face
tired and drawn
any light in her eyes
is gone

I draw close enough to see
a vague familiarity

she lifts her eyes to mine
and deeply sighs

before you ask
I am sworn
a sorrowful task
a collector of tears
shed in moonlight
tears caused by one
who‘s not contrite
guilty of love’s betrayal
who’s inflicted painful strife
and staggering sorrow
into another’s broken life

she concludes
and offers out her hands
that open on the box

filled with apprehension
I reach and grasp the case
lift it cautiously from her grip
lower it to my feet
gently as I place

opening it slowly
hesitant and tense
to reveal its strange contents

a small dull crescent moon shape
suspended in a most beautiful
dark cerulean jar

mute with wonder
I behold
staring into the beautiful blue
haunted as I do

this is yours
she explains
it is the moonsoul
of the loversmoon
under which you fell in love
and under which again
you later broke your lover’s heart

she continues

every moon casts its spell
quite differently
this special loversmoon
belonged to you and she
but now this loversmoon has died

I am the shadow
of your lover’s sorrows
I will be gone tomorrow
but this night
I visit you

I collected this moonsoul
long ago
the night you broke her heart

kept in this jar of cerulean blue
I present it now to you
for you see
your lover’s soul
has passed on
she is gone
she need no longer carry
this heavy burden

she was a technicolor
wish-upon big-eyed dreamer
when first you met her
but she was cry-alone
stay-at-home broken
when you turned and left her

you are guilty
of the death
of the love you shared
snuffed by your cheating ways
now you must carry this moonsoul
until your end of days

her words fall heavy upon me
bring tears to my eyes
as I realize
the burden of this moonsoul
is mine beyond the grave
there is no one who can save
me from this awful plight
a pain that’s mine by right

eyes lowered in fatigue
forlornly
she sighs
and gently cries

it was on a moonlit night
like this
the painful burden
of this moonsoul
was set upon her broken heart
I have carried it
since she passed
but for too long

it’s now come to you
at last

looking into my eyes
as though my dark soul she can see
she points accusingly at me

you must now atone
for your destructive lies
for your lover’s broken heart

it is written
in the fool’s book of sorrows
what were her yesterdays
will now be your tomorrows

now you must bend and lift
and clutch this burden to your breast
to struggle with its weight
to feel its sad unrest

you now understand
what was your abandoned lover’s fate
your debt can no longer wait
the guilt that surrounds this moonsoul
the guilt you’ve avoided ‘til tonight
is now brought into the light

karma has caught up with you
as eventually it does
for the hurtful things we do

you slowly slayed
your special loversmoon
those times you were untrue

your lover’s been set free
now this guilt and sorrow
passes on to you
where certainly it should be
it’s now you must feel sad
and deeply sorry too

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

 

Heart’s Magic

~ The human heart is always magical, always beautiful, though sometimes blocked by fear. But it will always rise, like a glorious sun, if supported by peace, love, and understanding — and when joined together with listening, patience, and sharing. That is the inspiration behind this mixed media fiberart piece, and this Eleventh Power poem. ~


”Dual Faces of Magic” — by: Kathleen & Rob Kistner © 1991

 
The surest path that can lead the heart to peace
is the embrace of a true uplifting love
it will allow fear and mistrust to release
the heart will rise and soar — peaceful as a dove
and one’s confidence and joy will then increase
as one feels the warmth of love — and strength thereof

an open mind is a step to find the key
to unlock an honest love that sets you free
to seek such treasure requires a willingness
to share your life — giving more, expecting less
these are the keys to find love and happiness

*
rob kistner © 2022

More Eleventh Power poetry at: dVerse

 


Speechless

~ Inspiration: living in the Pacific Northwest, part of the Pacific Ring, knowing we are very susceptible to a first strike — this awareness, and the instability on the Asian Continent, combined with these ‘4’ juicy quotes I used, proffered by Linda, drew this out. ~

 
When did it happen
the all-defining fire mark in time
that forever divided then from now

alone again today
lost in time
walking through the forest
wading the stream
sorting my thoughts
obsessively

recalling in horror
the instant of the startling sound
the strange light
that drew my disbelieving eyes
to the very tops of these Douglas Firs
that surround me now

and then came the second blinding flash
lighting the entire sky

“oh my god” I had gasped
“the damned fools have finally done it”
I was traumatized
by the horrible realization

she trembled
as we held each other
I thought of the future
and spoke of the past

terrified of the present

what a fool I was
what really did I know
of the times
that bookended my life
or in which I was currently immersed

knew little useful
and understood less
I was feeling old
and so unaware

I’d become obsessed
always staring into the clouds
mumbling beneath my breath
it’s better to look at the sky
than live there
such an empty place
so vague
just a country
where the thunder goes

and from which death rains

more than obsessed
I was becoming untethered

maybe the older you grow
and the less easy it is
to put thought into action
maybe that’s why
it gets all locked up in your head
and becomes a burden

makes you crazy
and angry

and I certainly was

seeing clearly my uncertainty
feeling the weight
of my growing pessimism
she left me

I just stood
mute
watching her go

civilization now in upheaval
infrastructure has collapsed
I am isolated here now
wandering
day after day
alone
very alone

home is where you feel at home
I’m still looking

since she is gone

it’s been too long
since I have seen a human face
or looked into another’s eyes
looked into her eyes
or even found my voice to speak

but it’s really of no matter
is it

what can possibly be said

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: dVerse

more poetry at: earthweal

 



Oh The Peace

This is a poetry form I created. It is called a VERTICAL ENTWINE, and is 3 poems in one. Consists of 10 lines. The 1st, 3rd, 5th, 7th, and 9th line should be made up of several words each (5 or more) and when read descending are a complete poem number one. The 2nd, 4th, 6th, 8th, and 10th should be lines of one or two words, when read descending together are brief second complete poem. All ten lines, when read together, are a 44-word Quadrille. It does not have to rhyme, and should be center justified. Perhaps a short name for the form could be ‘Quatwine’.

 

Oh the peace, wandering the ancient
old growth
my spirit is alive embracing the magnificent
forest
my heart settles and slows its beating
so quiet
my thoughts expand to see the timeless truth
deeply
in this transcendent moment I celebrate all of life
sacred

*

Oh the peace, wandering the ancient
my spirit is alive embracing the magnificent
my heart settles and slows its beating
my thoughts expand to see the timeless truth
in this transcendent moment I celebrate all of life

*

Old growth
forest
so quiet
deeply
sacred

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: dVerse

 

Love Light

 

Yes
it’s definitely a tough world
a fractured world
a frightening situation
feels like it’s all
coming completely apart
hard to keep going at times
damned difficult
keeping your head above water

mentally
emotionally
financially
spiritually
makes one crazy sometimes

the constant bad news
climate degradation
ecological collapse
runaway gas prices
pandemic
war
political turmoil
lies masquerading as truth
sometimes it’s just too much
almost makes you wanna hide

but remember
no matter how overwhelming
no matter how disheartening
even terrifying
things might be
you always have me
my love
and if we
as mindful inhabitants
of this fragile planet
will extend each other
patience
understanding
and love
this fractured world
can be nurtured and healed
and darkness will sustain no grip

…keep that love light burning!

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

more poetry at: earthweal

even more poetry at: Poets & Storytellers

 

As a proud conscientious elder of the planet, I present — “The Dead”

…and Michael, in one of his finest moments…

Musical Taste

~ a jazz cat ~

 

Damn man

try as I might my friend
I just can’t configure a chord

not with my pretty little
padded pussycat paws

nuh uh
not happenin’

if I strain my little toes
and stick my claws waaay out
I can almost get decent dyads

at least dissonant ones
ones I bet Ornette woulda liked
and probably Charlie too

but man

just ain’t no way
I can spread for a triad
major or minor

ain’t gettin’ there dude

but
wait a minute

maybe if I use my mouth
you know
kine’a ligh dis

nope

hell no
ain’t makin’ it

n’that hurt

but
wow

this middle “C”
tastes pretty damned good!

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

 

Ornette Coleman and Charlie Haden

Cruel Charade

~ BE WARNED – evil draws an icy breath ~

 

Molten round
the wolf’n eye
soft and round
the ripening breast

roundness
in the youngling’s fear
a circle round
the blood moon’s crest

there is a lie
in that circled moon
that surrounds
a cruel charade

it walks in shadows
collecting tears
‘til midnight’s debt
is fully paid

‘til innocence
is found to want
and purity
so deep defiled

that cold and soulless
canid eyes
will cleave the sweet
in the blood moon’s wild

and all that once
so tender pure
will on this night
turn beastly raw

and guilted hearts
will hide away
to deny at dawn
the truth they saw

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

 

Paradise

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Stand of Oregon old growth.
Oregon Lakeshore Trail #656, at Inlet Creek.

 

My footfalls
drum the root chambers
of the old growth

each step
cushioned by centuries of needle-drop
deep in this ancient forest

enjoying the rise and fall
twist and turn of the trail
I’ve circled a portion
of the cerulean mountain lake
crooked walking stick
smooth in my right hand

rounding a bend in the trail
brushing through waist-high fern
when to my left
in my peripheral
glimpses through the old-growth
flashes of rippled sterling
dance
sparkling in scattered sunlight

lost lake
old as time
steel deep
glacial cold
seductively enchanting

a few more steps
I crest a knoll
come upon a restless brook
and stop

mesmerized

I have arrived
wandering into my wonderland

filtered by the towering woodland canopy
light drifts down dreamlike
settles golden
into the natural cathedral before me

a downed giant redwood
the perfect natural alter
sacred and serene

were it a manmade cathedral
or a grande ballroom
truly gorgeous
might describe it
but this is so much more

breathtaking
falls short

even magnificent
feels wanting

a cool lake breeze
enfolds me
filled with the heady scent
of the living earth

cascade red cedar
douglas fir
ponderosa pine
moss
fern
bark
loam
wildflower
ionized mountain air

intoxicated
I grow very quiet

listening
with my soul
to the majestic still
breathing in the ancient

I become this moment
rapt
in touch with my spirit
with all of existence
with the eternal

transcendent
in this paradise

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Mt Hood seen from Oregon Lakeshore Trail #656 just before old growth stand.

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This is the natural gateway on Trail #656 opening on the old growth stand.
Both well over 200 feet tall, and hundreds of years old.
1/2 mile ahead you leave the path, wandering into the heart of the giants!

mighty sentinels
guardians of the old growth
may ever you stand

*
rob kistner © 2022

more wild stillness poetry at: earthweal



Beyond the Wonderwall

Remembering my 18-year-old son: Aaron Robert Kistner 11/4/76 – 7/3/95

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“Infinite Instance” by: rob kistner © 1997

This is a compilation of a few of the number of ecstatic pieces I have written since I started this blog 16 years ago. At age 75, I am in irreversible Stage D of CHF, and I have already had two near-death experiences. These reasons have drawn me to the question of the BIG WHY — and to pondering the essence of the infinite. There are more similar pieces I’ve written over the 16 years. You are welcome to further explore my Image & Verse to find more, if you are drawn to this ‘wondering’ as I am. The inspiration threads of all these pieces intertwine and evolve — as my perceptions grow and morph. They are point-in-time personal observations, not presented as any form of universal truth — other than to me in that moment.

I offer you this brief back story, to provide insight to these pieces below. I personally embrace the First Law of Thermodynamics, namely: “Energy can be changed from one form to another, but it cannot be created or destroyed. The total amount of energy and matter in the Universe remains constant, merely changing from one form to another.” I believe we humans are just one possible form energy takes. The “I/Me Awareness” we each experience personally, is an element of each of our ‘human hosts’, and does not travel with the core energy we individually embody, as it moves to its next form.

Through The Veil

Free Your Mind

Wonderwall

Awareness Dawns

Perception’s Window

Being Now

Time Master

Beyond

Paint Me Slowly

~ BE WARNED – hot and steamy ahead ~

 

Paint me coral
darling
or poppy red
even tangerine

paint my lips
a soft rose
paint my carnal thoughts
serene

paint me
with the soft brushes
like wings of a dove

paint me
with the sable brushes
of hot impassioned love

stroke’em sensually eager
‘cross my glistening skin
and as I start to swoon
paint me once again

paint me
all up and down
with deep magenta lust

then accent all my edges
with sparkling golden dust

paint me lonely
paint me sad
paint me fragile
paint me mad
just paint me oh so good
because I am sooo bad



painted human body art — by: Alexa Meade

paint me bare naked aching
paint every rise — every fall
I love the liberties your takingk
paint me slowly — paint it all

paint my beating heart
a sultry saffron gold
then paint my tender secret parts
make your brushstrokes bold

titillate me tiger
with your special
mink-tipped brush

paint me a randy red-orange
make me gasp
a shameless blush

paint me wilding
paint me crazy
paint me moaning
paint me hush
just paint me long
and languid
and lecherously lush

paint my skin a steamy smolder
just let it all flow fully

please paint me lil’rough my lover
I like a bit’a bully

or fingerpaint me
in a frenzy
while my mind spins
and cannot think

paint me peach
paint me salmon
paint me lemon
paint me pink

should you run out of brushes
and exhaust your fingertips
paint me scarlet with fired kisses
make the final strokes
with your lips

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

Poetry at: Poets & Storytellers

 


Self Portrait — by: Alexa Meade

Capture the Moon

 

That child
has captured the moon
holding eternity’s promise
in share

dreams of the future
‘neath a canopy of forever stars

feeling the energy
the vibrations
feeling the resonance
of a universe
of possibility

the strum of imagination
that brings song
to the young heart
that elevates
the courage of youth

the rhythm of spirit
that brings the thrill of dance
to young feet
that drives away
the stumble of sadness

the hum
of the hands of time
that will carry the dreams
toward the doors
opening on that future

but now
that moon child
is alight with anticipation

waiting
wondering
wishing

gazing
through the eyes of innocence
looking to that miracle
that is tomorrow

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

Poetry at: Earthweal

 



Friends

a conversation between friends

“Bear Friend” — Olga Barantseva

 

Yeah
I agree big buddy
the world has become confusing
with the planet’s ecology teetering
the constantly evolving global pandemic
the brutal war in Ukraine
the near insurrection in the US
women’s rights under attack again
insane gasoline prices rearing up
economic struggles everywhere
major corporations imploding

and

Marvel’s standard of excellence
slipping — badly

it’s all such bad news
almost un-bear-able

ah c’mon
quit yer growling big guy
I was just being pun-ny

ok
yes
terrible
I know
I’ll knock it off

hey
smile ya big fur ball
we got each other

always

and look
that forest

so beautiful
and still there

for now anyway

*
rob kistner © 2022

Poetry at: The Sunday Muse

 


Free Your Mind

~ Standing free in one’s own space, opening outward to all possibilities, entrapped by none of them, feeling the universal flow of the essence of each. We are all beams of light, shot through the universe, seeking not conclusion, but rather, the energy of flow. As often is said — it isn’t the destination, it is the journey. ~

 

Seek not the pompous
swelled with false confidence
dispensing the formulas of bliss
condemning you as the un-visioned
while fleecing you of your hard begotten

follow not the kings and queens of mammon
who worship the bottom line
desiring the upper hand
who would despoil the world and all it offers
as their playground of gratification

suffer not the priests and priestesses
who would say that only they have heard
and in so saying would dictate your thoughts
and direct your deeds
to conform to this truth of the god in their pocket

do not be cowered by the iron hand
of the bullet-brained who march in step
to crush under boot the will of any who will not queue
into the line that they have deemed
leads to the only way that life must be

do not be swayed by those who — “know”…
possessed of absolutely no uncertainty
knowing sure that what they know is what is
and in their infallible knowledge
know that what they know
is
was
and will ever be

resist demands
shun peer pressures

follow neither this singular voice
for I am not the source
not the be all
I too am but a searcher

instead — free your mind
gather with those who do not “know”
find the curious and the uncertain
those still filled with wonder
drawn to unfolding discovery
who embrace the constancy of learning
change
and growth

always stepping onward
but stepping lightly
alert to lift
and re-step
enlightened

it is they who will traverse this evolving world
this ever expanding universe of possibility
fashioning it as a fair
brighter
and better place

*
rob kistner © 2022

EDUCATION = COOPERATION <<~>> DOMINATION = ANNIHILATION

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sadly, the prevailing thinking of today’s world is imploding into negativity & darkness

New Day

 

This is the summer of the soul. A time of serious contemplation, and a time of great joy! This is a solemn Summer Solstice, scarred with wounds, yet so rich with possibility. A time to shout, voices raised in happiness, voices raised in insistence — every voice full, every shout to be heard, every song sung full throat! A bright and golden time for change, a time for moving forward. A time to warm our hearts in the sun of a brand new day. Not to forget the struggles, but to use them as a clearing to a shining tomorrow. A time to believe.

Yes, there may be wafts of smoke in the trees, but also carried on the breeze, are the songs of birds, the aroma of flowers, of the rich soil of the earth, of the grasses, leaves, and conifer needles — the fragrance’s of new birth, the heady intoxication of new dreams. This is the true bouquet of summer. Let this Summer Solstice mark an honest effort to make all the dreams a reality! For the summer sun shines on everyone. May each experience be one of warmth and rejuvenation.

may this summer’s winds
carry dreams of tomorrow
fragrant with new hope

*
rob kistner © 2022

More poetry at: dVerse

More poetry at: dVerse