I will Not Forget

NaPoMo poem #19

This is the nineteenth of the poems I will write this April, in honor of National Poetry Month, as proclaimed by the Academy of American Poets.

This poem is an edited rewrite of an older poem I’d written, but not completed to my satisfaction. Today’s prompt brought such deep feelings flooding into my heart, I was compelled to revisit the draft of this work and bring it to a fitting completion. I am very pleased with how it has turned out.

• NOTE: these poems will all essentially be early drafts, so edits may occur after their initial posting.

 

I Will Not Forget

(rappelé toujours)

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there are days I still can feel
the breeze of youth gently stir my soul

days remembered of grace and lightness
when faith in truth sparked splendid dreams

those days of you

when all we touched was fresh and new
and the world was full of wonder

when we were certain we’d live forever
our strength made each day a great adventure

those carefree days

the days we witnessed one for the other
as we made vows to our chosen life mates
raised our children
grew our careers
our families close through these days of joy

but not these days

I’ve grown unyielding
rigidly braced
against the winds of time and fate

my soul is rooted in life’s demands
I search its blessings
curse its burdens

these brittle days

I am bent by the yoke of worry
heavy with the weight of loss

I am haunted by the ghost of memory
the lonely days when I think of you

these empty days

how can this void be filled
when one so vital has departed

this world was denied much wit and wisdom
kindness and love lost
when you passed

how can this void be filled
when one so rich in these is gone

one who understood the need for giving
in a careless world darkened by greed

a tender heart
truly unselfish
whose warm embrace included all

how can this void be filled
when a brilliant light has been snuffed out

I will not forget

I will remember you
and all those days
that’s how I will fill this void

with the seeds of friendship
you planted deep inside my heart
now filled with grief

may they grow to make me gentler
and me — the world a better place

good-bye my friend

ever will I tend these seeds
and think of you

I will not forget

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rob kistner © 2009

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• you can find other NaPoMo offerings at read write poem

 

10 thoughts on “I will Not Forget”

  1. I think I listened to this one on your voice recordings last night. It’s sad and exquisite. You are lucky. Btw, your voice is very soothing. I will probably listen again.

  2. I too likes the contrast between the freshness and newness of youth and the ‘brittle’ and ‘unyielding’ days marred by loss but most of all I like the ending where the person lost is still able to make a difference.

  3. Rob,
    So expressive, eloquent and emotive. Touches deeply and moves on many levels. May those seeds of friendship and memories of wonderful shared times flourish in your creative soul as they do. Thank you for creating and sharing this unforgettable poem.

    Love your ambiance music and collages too!

  4. Thank you for writing this so eloquently that I cried deeply, remembering my dear friend who recently passed when I was not in blogland. Thank you for the release of tears that have flowed before now, but moreso, thank you for rocking my heart in your hands with your words. I ache that you also lost a friend. Although, we all reach a time in our lives when that happens and more than once, we will “never forget.”

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