jumped the gate
the bad binding
had me distracted
I just knew
the team equipment guy
lied
I was all on edge
i jumped the gate
disqualified
and to compound the misery
on the second lunge
the fucking binding broke
disqualified
and face first in the snow
the sonofabitch did lie
it wasn’t fixed
and the fall broke my ankle
that fool liers gone
and this is a new season
this is my season
I’m back
been working my ass off
I am ready
time to reclaim my career
no turning back
no room for doubt
no fear
no mistakes
years of preparation
conditioning
practice
sacrifice
years of believing
the past is passed
my dream is now
this one moment in time
winds
whistle in my headgear
I step off the tram
stride to the starting gate
snow crunchs
crisp and fresh underfoot
skis
waxed to perfection
thrown over my right shoulder
poles
gripped in my left hand
I vibrate
nerves
raw energy
pure adrenalin
I make the short walk
to the prep bench
I reflect
over 90 miles per hour
for 90 seconds
airborne
down the mountain
like a rocket
freefalling
at the edge of control
the edge of disaster
!EUPHORIA!
“I can do this!”
deep in focus
I visualize
repeating
over and over
tight tuck
knees flexed
eyes down the mountain
fearless
flyin’!
I sit
tighten my boots
affix my skis
checking twice
and again
I hear chatter
coaches
and officials
my competitors
self-talking
mantra-like
the clamor of the crowds
rolls down the mountain
gathers dense
at the bottom
the finish line
where the dream awaits
gradually
I tune out the din
to a buzz
now a quiet hum
finally
silence
I’m dialed in
locked
into my personal space
vivid concentration
intensely present
in sync
in my zone
coach
leads me to the gate
chanting
new day – new day
new day – to fly!
race officials
queue me up
this is my time
my destiny
my redemption
I am ready!
poised to start
I make
then re-make the run
in my mind
the one I’ve made so many times
in practice
I imagine the gate fly open
see myself push off
a mighty thrust
into the steep
first drop
I envision myself
accelerating fiercely
into the first turn
building a torrid pace
knifing
down the mountain
as if an apparition
a vapor
a blur
gone! 90/90!
alone in the gate
I snap to the present
acutely aware
the mountain
stretches below me
crystalline white
falling
twisting
down
down
this is it
my dance with fate
I am ready
so ready
ready to roar
down the icy slope
blassst!!
across the finish line
…ready to fly!
starting tone begins to pulse
my mind
links in cadence
my body
feels the rhythm
vision sharp
senses keen
surroundings
vibrant!
time
folds into slow motion
honing
to the long-awaited instant
the critical split-second
my legs
are wound springs
arms and shoulders
powerful pistons
my heart
a thunderous locomotive
suddenly
the gate swings away
my coach roars
I explode…
(revision © 2019
http://poetryblogroll.blogspot.com/2019/01/poets-united-midweek-motif-starting-over.html
It slowly enfolded for me taking me away with it. Good to read you. Always!
Gautami –
Thank you… I am pleased when you visit – always! 😉
I think the short sharp lines of this poem really suit the dynamic subject matter 🙂
I love the way you drew this out slowly without it feeling…slow. This felt like his inner monologue and I love the ending.
-Nicole
bb –
I’m pleased this piece resonated for you… thank you for sharing your thoughts. 😉
Nicole –
Your words are kind, and appreciated… 😉
My attempt was to pull the reader in to the singular mindset of the racer — to experience his concentration and his anticipation… to be inside his head as he subjugates his fears and prepares for this unique moment in his reality.
Oh, I’d much rather read about someone facing this kind of excitement. Thanks for letting me live vicariously!
Christine –
You are most welcome… 😉
Thank you for coming along on the adventure!
I like the way this skis down the page!
Phillip –
Fast and free… 😉
that’s quite a oomph!
very nice
Annamari –
Thank you… 😉
Wow! to capture this one moment in time, all that preparation all the build up and time slows right down in his perception before he explodes! Amazing!
STG –
Glad you enjoyed this…
Isn’t that true for much of life — considerable investment before there is a dividend.
Think about getting a PhD — many many years of work and prep to enjoy the moment of receipt.
You really capture the feeling of racing here! I should show it to my husband since he was a ski racer.
So well done!
That felt real – like I was making that descent too.
Wow, what an exhilarating ride. Great piece.
Thank you Vicki! I am so pleased you liked this… 🙂