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so as not to lose my mind
to prevent my sorrow
from choking the life
from my soul
to know what I really think
to ride the currents of my joy
and laughter
to track my growth
share what I have experienced
shed light on my ignorance
to leave my trace
expose my vulnerability
in hopes others won’t rebuke
banish
or hurt me
but rather see me worthy of mercy
of love
to see me not so unlike themselves
and have pity
because there is an urge
to break the mental silence
to make a din
create a literate clatter
to be certain I am not ignored
forgotten
or misunderstood
because I am sad
I am crazy
I am odd
I am insecure
I am lonely
frightened
cursed
clever
because I am thrilled
full of life
nearing death
desperate to know
confident in my knowledge
because I am entangled
and strangled
by the why of it all
because I can
and so that I might
for all of this
I write
and to survive
I have no choice
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rob kistner © 2010
All of the above! Yes, it is like this, isn’t it? There is such honesty and beauty in these lines.
I am pleased this resonated for you Linda! It was a very free, stream-of-consciousness write. When I was finished writing I felt very exposed — I knew then it was sincere. It required very little editing… 😉
I love your lines of thoughts, so original and beautiful 🙂
Hugs Marinela x x